Monday, October 15, 2012

In a Funk or has Life Changed?

As I look at my "about Me" part of the blog, I find that the person described, in fact, no longer describes me.  How does that happen?  It is really an a-ha moment as to *why* I have been feeling such a lack of passion for my daily life, lately.  This blog was started when I had a lot of activities that I was passionate about, and able to pursue.  God gave me a passion for animals, an ability to work with them intuitively, and in turn, they make me feel at peace.  When I don't, I start to feel kind of irritable... (sorry, family!).  Same with the running, it makes me relaxed and gives me the time and space to think & pray.  The lack of running has left me exhausted & stressed.

So, why don't I keep up with my passions?  Priorities, I guess.  That's really what it always comes down to, right?  A family with children at the ages of mine leads to a very busy atmosphere, and trying to coordinate everyone's activities is a full time job.  No day has the same schedule, so finding a routine for exercise, and doing things with the dogs is hard!  Add to this the quickly diminishing amount of daylight and increasing cold, it seems to be harder to get these two things back into my day.

I have been wanting to regularly blog for awhile now.  Used to be "the thing" to do in the Guide Dogs world, but Facebook has taken over this much more thoughtful form of writing (OK, Facebook cannot even be considered writing) and sharing.  I did not want to write the dry diary of what I did with my dogs, per se.  I didn't really want to write only about the activities of my family.  My attitude has not been the sort of thing that one wants to share on a regular basis.  Maybe this realization of what I have lost, and my desire and NEED to get it back is the reason this blog was ever started...  God works in mysterious ways.  That I have no doubt, and have been witness to time and time again.

So, this blog has been reborn.  It is the pathway to balancing the family life while remembering and celebrating the woman that God made me to be.  It really does have a lot to do with the dogs, after all.